To Have and to Hold

A clinical psychologist’s exploration of the modern dilemmas women face in the wake of new motherhood

When Molly Millwood became a mother, she was fully prepared for what she would gain: an adorable baby boy; hard-won mothering skills; and a messy, chaotic, beautiful life. But what she did not expect was what she would lose in the challenging transition to parenthood: aspects of her identity, a baseline level of happiness, a general sense of wellbeing. And though she had the benefit of a supportive husband during this transition, she also at times resented the fact that the disruption to his life seemed to pale in comparison to hers.

As a clinical psychologist, Molly knew her experience was a normal response to a life-changing event. But without the advantage of such a perspective, many of the patients she treated in her private practice grappled with maternal ambivalence, self-doubt, guilt, and fear, and suffered the dual pain of not only the struggle to adjust but also the overwhelming shame for struggling at all.

In To Have and to Hold, Molly explores the complex terrain of new motherhood, illuminating the psychology of motherhood and the ways it affects women psychologically, emotionally, physically, and professionally—as well as how it impacts their partnership. Along with the arrival of a bundle of joy come thorny issues such as self-worth, control, autonomy, and dependency. And for most new mothers, these issues are experienced within the context of an intimate relationship, creating unique relationship challenges after baby and adding another layer of tension, conflict, and confusion to an already challenging time.

As Molly examines the inextricable link between women’s well-being as new mothers and the well-being of their relationships, she offers guidance to help readers reclaim their identities, overcome their postpartum grief and shame, and repair their relationships. A blend of personal narrative, scientific research, and stories from Molly’s clinical practice, To Have and to Hold provides a much-needed lifeline to new mothers everywhere.

This compassionate and validating guide explores the unspoken truths of new motherhood and asks the crucial question: How do you find yourself again when becoming a mother changes everything?

• Identity After Motherhood: Navigate the profound sense of loss that can accompany this transition—from your personal freedom and professional ambitions to your very sense of self—and learn how to rebuild.
• Marriage After Baby: Understand why so many couples struggle after having a child. This book offers practical guidance for repairing your relationship and overcoming the conflict and confusion that can pull you apart.
• Postpartum Mental Health: Move beyond the overwhelming shame and guilt that so many new mothers face. This is a much-needed lifeline that validates the complex emotional terrain that isn’t just postpartum depression.
• A Psychologist’s Perspective: Benefit from a unique blend of a mother’s honest personal narrative, fascinating scientific research, and relatable stories from a clinical psychology practice.