Why I Don't Date

When a person desires a wholesome healthy beautiful relationship while believing he or she has what it takes to secure their hearts desire due to their confidence based on charisma, charm, and exterior accessories, the very same person they pulled and displayed in their world as their person, their partner, the best thing that ever happened to them, the person of their dreams, sharing smiles and activities amongst friends and family, even social media is the same person they no longer can stand, despise, respect, and most likely hate. My question is, what causes that switch? And why is this pattern so fluent? Could it be based on the environment and influence we grew up under? And are we willing to give ourselves the chance to go through a shading process to eliminate the inherent behaviors that's caused us to feel alone and empty inside? It is totally up to you.