Safe haven

My doctor said after I decided to go to him again, that I was deliberately pushing myself into pain to punish myself! He said that I have not yet emerged from the circle of harm in my previous life.Oh God! Didn''t understand yet!I got over my previous life, I got over it while I was still inside it, my only problem was that I saw my sadness in an unreal life, as an absurd thing, which was the reason I went to it in the first place!I wanted to stop being sad...so how can you be sad about an unreal life, for God''s sake!My doctor didn''t understand me, neither he nor anyone else.Only he understood, only he wanted a real life... like me...!