I don''t sleep

"And I do not sleep.. Sleep no longer torments me, and thinking about evil no longer worries me.. And yet I do not sleep.. Perhaps because in order to sleep I must wake up.. And I do not wake up.. There is neither wakefulness nor sleep in my life today!.. I am dead... I am walking like a dead person... A dead woman with her eyes open, who has not found anyone to lower her eyelids over her eyes, so that she looks as if she is sleeping!... I want someone to lower my eyelids... so that I can sleep!... When will I sleep?!!"