"I am confused between the one whose shoulders bore stars and the one who hid behind a book, strong and mighty, whom I love, and religious, selfish, who wants me, between a future I long for and corruption surrounding me. I search for the "guarded spirit" between the present and the past in mosques and churches, and from the Cairo of Al-Moez to slums. Imbaba, between the prisons and the flowers of the fields, between good hearts and sinful hearts... Will I find it? *** A realistic novel that tells the events we lived through, the story of the struggle between two choices; They are both bitter. Are you looking for the third way away from "the love of control and accessibility"?!.. A murder incident - like the one we hear about every day - leads the novel''s heroes to things they did not expect, linking the past, present, and future.