Cross Too Heavy

I am writing these words because I am tortured and tormented day and night. For weeks and now months, I have fought a fierce battle that I know I cannot win alone. There have been moments that I was certain my heart would stop or that the weight of this burden would surely stop my breathing. The absolute despair and depression have been unbearable, and I wondered at times if I would survive. Only with Gods divine intervention can I find the person that I want and need to be.