What If I Had Taken The Roads Not Traveled

Upon the demise of her recent marriage, she can no longer ignore the inner voice that chastises her for the many mistakes she has made that have brought her to this unhappy place. She is shadowed by a cloud of dissatisfaction, disappointment and outright unhappiness. She has missed opportunities. She has made bad choices and decisions. She feels like a failure. As she looks around everyone seems to be happier and/or more successful than she is. She is haunted by the "e;What ifs"e; of her life and the nagging feeling that she would be happier, more successful, more satisfied if she had only taken a different path somewhere along the way. She desperately wants to enjoy where she is in her life at this moment. So she begins a painful journey down the roads she has traveled in the hope she can "e;exorcise"e; the "e;what ifs"e; that rob her of her peace of mind. Her life has been a winding and twisting path of triumph and despair. She has been: married, divorced, widowed, a step parent, financially broke, a single parent to four children, a full time caregiver to a terminally ill husband, a victim of spousal abuse, a parent to two adolescents addicted to alcohol and drugs and a seeker of spirituality. She relives the seminal events of her life searching for some insights, observations and/or "e;wisdom"e; she can glean from those experiences. Ultimately she is searching for peace and a good road map for the remainder of her journey. She humbly offers her experiences, insights and perhaps wisdom to the reader in hopes she can develop a road map for her own journey and find peace and happiness in her own life.