Tranny

"I paid $500 to have my balls cut off."

Born one way, but living another, Nicky K. has it all:

• low standards,
• unfulfilled dreams,
• tragic mulatto angst,
• a history of sexual abuse,
• a dead Daddy who is now a pestering car wreck mangled ghost who won't quit criticizing,
• several obese, depressed, White women as co-dependent BFFs;
• hostile and enviable male to female transsexuals in her therapy group;
• a friend/former pimp who will only walk five steps ahead of her so as not to be spooked by her bad hair days

and a host of (pseudo, kinda, sorta, maybe) boyfriends including:

• an ex-convict/former model who was HIV infected by a TV star,
• stalked classmates in their dorm rooms,
• a married skoliosexual employer
• husband material in a Dominican man., who loves her male appendage....a little too much,
• a porn star who secretly dates her roommate,
• a Pakistani conductor of the 7 train in Queens (with a violent wife),
• a childhood molester who she dates on and off again,
• and, a half brother who she's infatuated with....who is willing to mess around.

Scrambling from one madness to another delusion to another reality trauma, borne of parents:

• a Greek/Black preternaturally, beautiful mother,
• a new stepfather who think the Republican saturated Orthodox Church has the answers to sexuality confusion.
• a vicious, living (now dead) father, who even his own parents think is evil.

Nicky K tries practicing, and occasionally turning, every trick in the book, for acceptance and success. From auditioning for Broadway shows, to a decade long unsuccessful long college career, to stripping, to being a secretary with benefits, to hardcore prostitution and occasional degradation in sex clubs or from picking up random men. All in a mesmerizing attempt to get up the balls (and cash), to have them cut off.....all told by Nicky K in her own words