For months, Tallie McGovern has been coping with the death of her older brother the only way she knows how: by smiling bravely and pretending that she's okay. She's managed to fool her friends, her parents, and her teachers, yet she can't even say his name out loud: "N--" is as far as she can go. Then Tallie comes across a letter in the mail, and it only takes two words to crack the careful fa ade she's built up:
Two words that had apparently been checked off on her brother's driver's license; two words that her parents knew about--and never revealed to her. All at once, everything Tallie thought she understood about her brother's death feels like a lie. And although a part of her knows he's gone forever, another part of her wonders if finding the letter might be a sign. That if she can just track down the people on the other end of those two words, it might somehow bring him back.
Hannah Barnaby's deeply moving novel asks questions there are no easy answers to as it follows a family struggling to pick up the pieces, and a girl determined to find the brother she wasn't ready to let go of.